Ninja PLEASE!

He kills me, for real!

My heart breaks for him and his family. I couldn't imagine losing a brother or son in such a tragic way. I couldn't imagine the pain he is going through. What I do know is I would want to hold each and everyone of my kids a little closer and a little longer.

But of course him not seeing his son for a month before this even happened is my fault. Yep and now its even more my fault because I stress him out and he can't compromise with me... Ninja PLEASE! I have always been there for you even when I was hurt and angry. I am the one who brought you food and gave you my truck, I bent over backwards to be there for you and have you build a relationship with your son. YOU have never anything.

Its funny how your girl friend had the balls to say that I show favoritism to my baby over my other two... (BOLD FACE LIE) I do everything with all of my children. I love all of them beyond words. Hmmm Ninja what are you doing? Oh right, YOU acting like Special K doesn't exist and do everything to be a good father to the other two and the other one was just born. I think your girlfriend even said I shouldn't be a mother, so WHAT'S this say about you. Didn't she also say something about my kids having different dads? Hmmm don't your three boys have different Mom's and you and your Brothers and sister have different Dad's? Hmmm What's she say about you and your situation? Wait come to think of it doesn't her Dad have kids with different women?

The next time you do an media interview at work and tell them how important family is to you, maybe remind yourself that you have a 5 month old baby that you have nothing to do with. 

Its so sad that you tell so many lies to make me this horrible person, and act like I should be hurt or upset. But here's the truth you can lie about me make people think bad things about me that part I can move on from, but how you treat our son I can't get over and I won't get over it.

You should be ashamed of your self for how you treat him and how you let your girlfriend talk about about him. What kind of a father doesn't defend their own child.

One day you will want to know special K and you will reach out to him, but when that day comes I pray for you it won't be too late.