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30 Day Detox

 

Well I have made it through the first half of day one. I haven’t felt the need to contact ‘him’. I am not going to say it is easy, BUT I am doing it…

Ahhhh I say with a smile. It’s almost like I finally have some peace now ‘he’s’ gone back home. I don’t mean it in a mean way, not even a little.

All I have to say is if you can live in the same town as your son for 6 months and see him at the very most 7 times and leave him without seeing him or saying good bye,

I really don’t have anything to say to him anymore. It isn’t even worth the fight. 

So I am on a 30 day detox and I hope after the 30 days I have no urge to talk with him again, I call it the 30 day detox because the 30 days is always the hardest. I didn’t pick the best tie to do it since Christmas is 18 days away but all I have to remember is he left without a good bye.

Day 1 – a) Zumba man alive I am grateful for a good Zumba work out. I get to look awkwardly sexy and laugh the whole time. Thank you sweet A for watching Baby K for me do this.

b) My kids remind me no matter what is going on in life I am ever so grateful for them. They always make me laugh no matter the mood. Watching each milestone they reach in life is a true blessing.

c) I am so grateful for my struggle, YES my struggle. Maybe somewhere in life I forgot to say thank you for my life and everything I have and maybe some day’s aren’t what we wanted or what we thought it would be, but everything you have is a true blessing and sometimes we forget to appreciate the little things, My struggle is a reminder of all I have.

d) I am grateful that I am sitting here on a Sunday with a glass of wine watching Friday and laughing. A month ago, year ago, 2 weeks ago – well I never thought I would be sitting here laughing, I was too busy feeling sorry for myself and what he did to me. Thank you for making me stronger.

e) Most of all today I am grateful that I get to be me. That I don’t have to lie or cheat. I don’t have to mislead people or make people feel bad about themselves. I don’t have to be perfect in fact I am imperfectly beautiful and I am grateful for that.

Every day I am going to blog about the good and bad of this 30 day detox and maybe some other great fun stories because my life is a journey in itself.

Chat tomorrow maybe even tonight… KISSES XO